Almost twenty years after my accident I can still hear the bones breaking and my sister’s screams. They play in my mind like a broken record. Over and over the awful sounds, they’re as horrible as reliving the day. So to relieve the pain if only for a little while I open the bottle and take one as needed.
As I place twenty seven of the little white oval pills in my hand, I pick up my bottle of Jim Beam and wash down the depression and pain. Physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted I run a bath and lay in the steamy water.
In bloom by Nirvana plays in the back ground, Kurt Cobains singing soothing the thought that in less than thirty minutes I won’t be on this earth. My mind will be released to the universe and I will be out of my pain forever. The screams of death and agony play over and over in my mind.
Soon my physical pain subsidies and I feel at ease. I’m starting to nod of, my eyes begin to close. Soon I’m in dream land. That’s it I’m dead, just waiting for the light. But the light isn’t coming. This is what I pay for suicide. I’m in limbo.
And here we see the silicone that was originally in the breast of an idiot
It’s actually a jelly fish… we get them here in Florida, the idiot touching it is gonna get areally really bad rash, -grouchman
this popped on my dash and I giggled, a lot. haha.
dendritic moss agate
“According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs, and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate beings condemning them to spend their lives in search for their other halves.”
~Plato’s The Symposium.
How many times will I reblog this? “Always.”
untitled by Džesika Devic on Flickr.
Olympus Canon EOS DIGITAL REBEL XTi